Embracing the Suck, Dealing with it, and Moving On.

Life sucks. Sometimes. Depending on who you are and what you are going through. My life as of right now is ok. Not great but ok and it could always be worse. I beleive in embracing the suck and moving on and not the suck that is life sometime defeat you and what you are in this world. Yes it is easier said than done by far but what else can you do? Wallow in misery,become a total and complete dick to those around you? Forgetting your dreams and desires or throwing away morales and values all because well life sucks? You have to embrace it, and you have to deal with it or it will defeat you and you cant let that happen. Dealing with the suck only makes you stronger, makes you a survior and allows you to see the forest for the trees, the beauty that is life and makes us rethink what you really truly want out of life. My best friend of 15 years is no longer speaking to me over the dumbest bullshit issue there is known to man. She was a lousy friend at times well 50% of the time yet i miss her like crazy she took all  our friends with her and now im left with no one. My daddy who i love very much has cancer and im terrified that he is going to be gone soon. This really sucks. Nevertheless im embracing it and dealing with  it becausse i know i have to move on and eventually everything will be ok. I have to deal with the fact that my friend is gone and never really gave a fuck about me. I have to deal with the fact my father will be dead soon and  I will no longer hear him scream "sweetbaby!" when he calls my voicemail. I use to let things fester inside of me, meaning i didnt deal with my hurt,my anger,my pain. I just ingored it willing it to go away thinking that if i acknowlged it i was a weak fool. I was made of stronger stuff than that! It didnt work and i was a bitter,jealous,distrustful person. I dont want to be that way ever again. I dont want to hide away from my issuses i need to embrace what i am going through. There are peole out there who go through far,far worse things than what i am going through right now. Rape,divorce. murder,war,death,extreme poverty. Yet they embrace and deal with these woes and come out on top. They yell,scream, drink, cry whatever but they are the stronger for it and i admire them. Im not saying hug and kiss the suck and embrace it like a fucking puppy, just dont run away from it or lash out at others who are trying to be there for you during your time of suck and to handle your suck depending on what it is like an adult.  Whatever doesnt kill us does make us stronger. When my daddy leaves me and i know he will sooner than later im going to cry like a baby and want to drink till I puke and want to die right along with him.But i cant. I have to stay on this earth and deal with what god  has so freely giving to me. Life. And my dads death is not gong to be the end of the suck, there will be more to come. Much more! I can either embrace it and deal and move on or i can stick my head in the sand, become a total and complete asshole, and push away those who have had my back for years  with my fucked up behaivor.